Number crunching , calculations , permutation and combunations , data mining , above all tension, anxiety - i will describe my past few days like this only. one question in my mind...... can i take this ne more? I hope i can, but my mind doesnt want to. it bloody goddamn tired. i should have been sad today. Man Utd lost on the FA Cup finals. But i am not. i am not affected. this is the last thing i want, i just dont myself to be cut off from the world. i wanna go out n have fun. My idea of fun may not going to an expensive bar and drink a lot (cant even afford it) or go to a very busy place... i just want to have some peace. just give time to myself, reflect upon my actions. a lot many things are on my mind rite now. I wanna find solutions to them, but just cant seem to find time. I need space. My space, I need to talk to myself, or else i am going down. it wont be too long that a tire out and lose everything.
lately, i am getting some information abt my frens. Holy Christ !!! they have become super human beings now. And when i look at myself, i pity myself. Where am I? who am i? i m nothing. wat have i done to my life. i need to grab it by the throat at put it right back on track. But i know, its not that easy, i need to fill the gigantic void. It will take massive time. But if i am able to fill it, the growth, i know, must be really intoxicating.... When that happens, i will know that my number crunching bore fruits !!!
Take care!!!
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hey we can goto a cheap bar and drink a lot ( you can afford that !!)
you need to grab it by the balls
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